You don’t ever have to do something reluctantly.
When you find yourself reluctant in the middle of something, you always have a choice – to pull through or to drop it. If you accepted an invitation to a friend’s party and you are reluctant to go, you have a choice to either follow through on your commitment or to apologize and decline the invitation. Reluctance is merely a sign that you wish to do both things – to attend the party as well as not attend it. When you pause to think about it, the absurdity of the situation is often clear.
Reluctance is a sign that haven’t fully committed to a particular decision. The choice to change that is always yours.